I'M PROUD, SON

first time crying in a month

I’m proud of myself for going so long without crying

I’m not very proud of myself for cracking over a really awful reason

I think I’m just having an off day

I was spoiled for the last week with awesomeness and now I’m back home and every thing is very lackluster

I need to remember that patience is a great thing

JUST CHILL OUT, ENJOY YOURSELF

wow, I totally forgot about this thing.

What have I been proud of in the past two months?

eh, some days, just getting out of bed was good. I’m finally getting ahold of my emotions. I’ve been generally better at just BEING. I lost my virginity (I can be proud of that, right?) I’ve been more talkative and more open minded and significantly less negative.

I guess that’s all. 

Oh, and I’ve been writing some of my favorite stuff I’ve written. That’s fun, too.

Life is getting better because I’m finally realizing that it’s my duty to cheer myself up and I can’t wait around for it to come to me. Not that I DIDN’T realize that before or tried, I guess I just have a better perspective of it now. 

• I started writing a song that I actually really like for the first time EVER. Maybe it’s not as serious as I would like it to be, but it won’t get out of my head. I can’t wait to finish it.

• I started on and COMPLETED a song called “A Break Up Letter To My Friends” and it is awesome
• I decided that I don’t want to go back to school next year because I’m finally HAPPY

• I got first place in Wii Mario Kart after sucking balls and coming in twelfth for hours
• Keight’s family members all remembered my name (meaning I’m MEMORABLE, DUH)